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i like when life slams a large door in your face for a reality check

it's the beginning of hell week
i'm leaving for school now, and i haven't written my macbeth response
i waited over an hour to find out about my admission decision for bu online
and i didn't get in.

dear livejournal,

i love you a whole lot. you've brought me really good times, and really bad times. you've dehumanized all of my friends, etc, etc. maybe some day down the road i'll pick you up again. but for now, we're done.

i love you,

ryan

does anyone have plans for next friday night?
?
it's elijah wyman's new album release party, and i'm planning on going. he's going to have everything there, like the clarinet, flute, dulcimer, etc.

it's at the vault alarm in salem, ma and starts at 8 pm on march 17, friday.

i've talked to vicky and kevin about it. i'm willing to drive. and i think i talked to anna and ben about it too. let me know if you're interested or want to go. because elijah rocks (shout shout)

peace

edit: is it too much to ask that you leave my friends alone, leave my decisions about what i do alone? honestly, can you just find something or someone else to talk about? my decisions and problems are mine, and mine alone. i don't need your input unless i ask. kthnxbye

this is more of a blog entry...what i think the real intent of lj actually is.

i've been thinking about music lately, and how my interests and tastes have changed so much, yet still stay mainly within the genres i've always listened to.

example 1 - today: at goodwill, seal's "kiss from a rose" was playing, and i told kevin how i used to always listen to that song when i was a younger child. but i don't anymore.

example 2 - thinking about music from the early summer: every night at camp i needed to fall asleep to "fire on the mountain" by GD. and in fact, the mix that i put that on also had...ripple, begonias, franklins tower, eyes of the world and sunrise, along with other tunes such as bouncin' round the room, heavy things, seven bridges road, sinister minister, come as you are, etc

example 3 - late summer: i went into a really large phish phase. and often claimed to jamie and vicky that i liked phish way better than grateful dead. i was into the double live album, and billy breathes. "stash" and "gumbo" were two songs that i always listened to in my car--sort of how sugar mag. is always on in jamie's car.

example 4 - senior year: i've given a lot of newer music a chance. stuff that i probably wouldn't have listened to before. i have a better respect, and a liking for electronica, and hardcore bands. i enjoy them, it's really cool to see how much they're into their own music and playing it. i've also gotten way more into that large, large "indie" genre. a lot can be classified as indie, and there are so many sub-categories within it. it also gives me this cool local color vibe. i like knowing people my age, my friends, and really talented musicians are out there having a blast and making good music that's actually good and fun to listen to.

example 5 - currently: i'm back into grateful dead, probably more than summer. i haven't listened to phish in so long, and i miss them. i miss the ridiculousness of the mango song, and contact, and the sweet breakdowns in magilla, the list goes on. i'm finding more and more that i like early grateful dead more than their later stuff. i still have a lot of respect for it; especially terrapin station, with all the orchestrations involved and just the length of that piece itself. although, i like the folk-ish aspect of the dead too. new, new minglewood blues, cumberland blues, new speedway boogie, jack straw, doin' that rag, etc.

it's really interesting to track your changes in music, and i suggest you all take some time and just think about the changes you've made recently.

peace

i'm back in happenin' hampstead right now, and i'm pretty pissed about that. i still want to be in north conway.

+attitash was sick
+hanging out with kevin was sick
+condo's are sick, so is north conway, too
+i'm in love with mini skis

i can't think of a better way to spend my last february vacation--as a student. boston tomorrow...with tom quigley?! awk. just a little...

i'd update with pictures...but i took four. and i'll tell you what they were of:
1-JEM COIN LAUNDRY
2-a sign on the side of the road, that i didn't even take--kevin did
3-mt. washington hotel (w. flash)
4-mt. washington hotel (w.o flash)

LATAZZZ

tomorrow is friday, which makes me almost giddy with happiness, because i'm really looking forward to this week being over.

it hasn't been bad per se, just boring and slow. i thought it was friday afternoon when the bell rang, then it was sad to realize i still had to endure another day of school. but, recital hour is tonight, and i'm really excited to participate in it, and hear my lovely friends make lovely music. it's at 7 o'clock in the stockbridge, so you should go if so desired to. i'm playing a bach prelude and fugue, quinney and val are playing beethoven sonatas, and ben's playing a rachmaninoff prelude. should be good times; i can't wait to work with arlene kies afterward!

just like every other teenager on the face of this planet--i need money. i wanted to work today, but my dad said i couldn't. it was actually heartwrenching. i was all set to make some money, and no, i couldn't, because he didn't want me rushing around. newsflash--my life always rushes around, i could obviously handle it. (i apologize to anyone reading this...i feel like this is a lizzy mcguire episode? and i've never even watched that show)

this weekend is looking up:
saturday-pit rehearsal, piano lesson, beatles rehearsal, and my gramp's surprise 85th birfday party at hanscom afb
sunday-hopefully jamming with ryan and kevin, getting some covers done, and recording; beatles show, and staying over kevin's
monday-as long as my parents let me go: SKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING! at attitash with kevin

i'm stoked. i havne't been skiing in so long (ok...i know it's only been like 3 weeks, but still, it feels really long)

alright, i'm off to do bigger and better things...like clean horseshit

PEACE!!! and congratulations to all my lovers with their college acceptance ( letters )

fun fun night

i enjoy basement shows with harper, modern elevator music, and whale tape in manchester at a stranger's house--it was a really great show

my sister's visiting tomorrow--sweet

i sit next to jamie in pit band and we're silly with our stringed instruments--the songs are all "cute"

that last sentence i wrote made me seem really flamboyant

recital hour this week with arlene kies master class=life

no more history papers; no more 20th century projects

band dance was fun

conclusion:ineedtobecomelessstressed

peace!

So today is one of those, Ryan needs to do his entire 20th century project and history paper so he's staying home days. And honestly, I feel really sick too. I can't breathe through my nose, my throat hurts, and my voice is really scratchy.

Anyway, I find it sort of hilarious because I just checked Edline. I thought I was doing great in my classes, maintaining the grades I had earlier in the year, but no. Not at all. I dropped from a 95 in Physics to a 78, and I dropped down to a low B in History which sucks, because I will not take that final if it's the last thing I do.

So, now off to work on these ridiculous amounts of homework.

Peace!

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Saturday, February 4, 2006





turn your speakers up, it's really quiet because i was covering the microphone on my camera with my finger by accident.

peace!

and senior ball was really fun! i had such a good time there and at applebee's afterwards.
and thank you to kelsey for hosting a lot of people at her house, sorry i couldn't make it :( parents plagued with weather paranoia

first of all, thank you everyone who participated on my last lj entry. i really appreciated all of your answers, they made me feel good, and reminded me of all these great times i've had with all of you as my friends. more recently, it's really important to keep all these good memories going, especially during this time of year, when everyone is getting on each other's nerves and people seem really emotional. things get blown out of context; we've all experienced drama before. stick with the ones you love, and make sure you talk with the ones you're questionable with. it's harder than it looks, i know. with aim and lj and myspace, we dehumanize a lot of our friends. give someone a phone call, talk to them in or out of school. and i'm not going against aim, lj, or myspace, i have all three; just don't solely rely on them for a means of a serious conversation...they do work great, but an old-fashioned conversation never hurt anyone either.

i've also been told that i stress out too easily. very true statement. i'm trying to cut down, and i think i am. this weekend was perfect it. being away from home helped, even though i still knew everything that was going on. we all can take a huge lesson in brushing the dirt off of our knees after a fall and getting back up and into the game; don't waste a moment.

so, if you read that, or even if you didn't...i do have pictures.
they're not resized, but deal. and if you didn't read that...you should, it's meaningful, and friendly.

( i'm a bit of a screamer )

Hey!
I'm a copycat

What is your favorite memory of me or time that we spent together?
Answer or get cut from my friends list
I'm taking this seriously, fools.